July 16, 2012
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Meh?
That might describe what I am going through.I can’t get motivated to get any work done. I’m paid a lot of money to work from home and for the last couple of weeks, I just couldn’t get motivated. My current work is to create a training manual for training I need to do on July 30. I’ve hardly started it. I can’t jeopardize my position because I will never find another job like this one.
I don’t really feel anxious. More like restless with a bit of lethargy thrown in. Like I feel like I want to do something, anything, but don’t feel like getting out of this chair, which makes me even more restless.
I’ve also been in a shoe buying spree. I think I’m done now. I hope so. I’ve run out of room to put them.
Maybe I need to get back on the Welbutrin.
All I really ever feel like doing is reading and sleeping. And since reading often leads to sleeping, I don’t do it much. So I sit at my computer playing games.
Last night Roger and I went down into the basement and hooked up our guitars and started playing some songs and singing. His son’s band was over and they came down and joined us so we jammed for a little while. But I didn’t practice what I should have, which is the stuff for my lessons.
I also haven’t felt like practicing my choral music. And our director expects us to be “off the paper” this week – meaning we know the music and now just need to work on perfecting it.
Comments (4)
I’m sorry to hear you are feeling like that. I can sort of relate to it though. I know exactly what you mean about knowing you need to get out of that chair, but just don’t have the motivation to do it. LOL!
Are you a last-minute person? As far as the training manual goes – will you go crazy on it for a few days before it is due to get it done? I tend to do that sometimes.
Perhaps it is time to talk to the doc about it.
@ItsSuze - I know the manual will get done. I’ve been working on it little by little.
I agree it might be time to talk to the doctor – if not for meds, maybe there’s something else weighing on your mind you need to sort through. Only reason I mention it is because if I’m restless, it usually means I’m avoiding dealing with something.
I find that for a lot of my major projects, I need to spend a good chunk of time thinking about it before starting. A lot of people would call that procrastinating, but then once I get started, it comes together pretty quickly, and I need the time to map it out in my head (consciously or unconsciously). It wouldn’t surprise me if you worked the same way through projects.
@Tyche - Yes, I think generally that is what happens when I have a big project to do. I remember in one of my classes, I had to write a minimum 6-page paper. I spent a lot of time thinking about it and what seemed to be procrastinating. But when it came time to actually write the paper, I sat down and wrote nonstop until it was finished. And it turned out to be 19 pages long. (I think I shared it at one time – it was my paper for my Audio Engineering class on the making of Pink Floyd’s Dark Side of the Moon.) I know I have it online somewhere and don’t know where! lol