October 31, 2011
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So. Freaking. Tired.
I can’t possibly be getting as much sleep at night as I think I am. Today at around 5pm I could hardly hold my head up and took a ‘nap’ until 7. I missed all the little trick-or-treaters. Roger said they were really cute.
There is just so much that needs to change. I think that is part of what is making me so tired.
1. I need to get my weight down
2. I need to exercise
3. I need to make those lifetime habits
4. I need to remember to inject insulin before every meal
5. I finally am consistent at taking my meds twice a day every day.I can’t work on everything at once, no matter what anyone tells me to do. It’s too easy to get discouraged. I am working on taking my insulin before every meal now, no matter what I eat. That is going to be key in getting my numbers right. Once that becomes an ingrained habit, I’m going to work on the food part.
Which brings me to another dilemma. I am allowed 45 grams of carbs at every meal and two snacks of 15 grams of carbs. (This is my dietician’s recommendation). It’s easy enough to do that at lunch and dinner where I can eat a lot of non-starchy veggies and some form of protein, but at breakfast, it’s really tough. It amounts to something like this:
1 slice of toast with 2 Tbsp of peanut butter, half a cup of high fiber cereal and 1/4 cup of soy milk. (lactose intolerant – something I am hoping will go away as I lose weight because I really miss dairy products! Even lactaid isn’t working so I have to forego them altogether)
That will leave me starving in two hours.
The other alternative is to have an egg sandwich – but I can’t eat just egg on it (well, I suppose I could if it was all I had – and maybe I could acquire a taste for it.) So an egg, cheese and sausage sandwich would leave me feeling full and satisfied for about 5 hours.
For now, though, I’m concentrating on making the insulin a habit – one I don’t even have to think about. Once I get my blood sugar from spiking and dipping, I might not be so fatigued all the time.
Comments (10)
That is a lot to think about all the time. I would feel like I did when I was on Weight Watchers, all I did was think about food.
I can’t remember – have you had a sleep study? Your description of being tired all the time sounds a lot like sleep apnea. I know when to prompt Rick to make sure his mask is fitting properly when he starts needing to take a nap in the middle of the day. I can usually see it in his face as well.
That list is daunting. I’m guessing if you work on some of the others, your weight will take care of itself. Hugs.
@nevragn - Exactly – it seems when you are on some type of ‘program’ you become obsessed about food, trying to make sure you are making the right choices, worrying if you don’t have options, what you’re going to do at your next meal to make up for it, worrying that you might totally blow it and give up, etc. etc. etc.
@Tyche - I did have a sleep study, but I didn’t sleep enough for them to get a good reading. I couldn’t get comfortable, I felt like I couldn’t breathe, etc. I never went back for another one. I am hoping that going step by step, getting habits built one at a time will make things just kind of work themselves out.
You know I’m going to say this, but I’m going to say it anyway: I’d still suggest going for another study. Being able to get good sleep can change your perspective on a lot of things. (Of course, that being said, Rick hasn’t had a sleep study done in years, and keeps putting off having another one done, to make sure everything is at the right setting. I’ve been reminding him for ages. So, you can see how well I’m doing at persuasion
).
your list isn’t as long as it seems. you are so right to get the injections going first. i have been diabetic for several years now and the first thing i had to do was get over the anger for having diabetes. The meds became a part of my daily habits after really taking the time to do it twice a day. The rest works together, don’t worry about the weight at all. Just do the exercise. Walking is the best possible exercise and if you have access to a swimming pool water exercise is even better. If you can do the exercise the weight will slowly work itself off but more important you will feel better, have more energy, and stamina. Good luck. I’m still working at it. The exercise is hard for me in the winter but I plan each winter to do more even if it’s only just a walk to the mail box.
@Tyche - I’ll be talking to my doctor on Friday (an informal visit – to discuss my meds) so maybe I’ll ask her about scheduling another one.
@GoodGuyTheBoss - It’s funny how we know how much better exercise will make us feel, but I am always too tired to take that first step. KNOWING that with each step I’ll become more and more energized.
@SherylM - I KNOW!!!! Just this morning my walking buddy and I called off our walk. I had to remake 2 sofa cushion covers by 5PM tonight so I used that as a ligitimate excuse. I am now tired and will just veg out for the rest of the night.
@GoodGuyTheBoss - I think that’s what I need – a walking buddy!